I had a nightmare. I dreamt that I went out late (with a guy, wtf. I’m so slutty in my dreams lol) and it was 2am. I had to wait for a bus. I saw dad and was glad cos it meant that he would drive me home. But then I saw his family. The wife instructed her older daughter to “Di noi chuyen voi no di” (go talk to that person/thing) acting like I didnt understand Viet and called me “no” (thing) I turned at them and yelled “con ko phai la ‘no’ ” (i am not a thing!) and dad looked surprised at my outburst. I told him “con co noi voi cha may lang roi. co ko muon Thay mat may nguoi nay” (ive told u many times before. I dont ever want to see them) he yelled back “I thought it was bcos I used to treat u bad thats why u hated them. Now I’ve been treating u so well and this is the thanks I get?”
He walked away from me with his new family.
I felt so hurt but I started to think it was my fault. I could’ve been nice to them but I couldn’t.,. He left our perfect family for them. They ruined our lives.
I started to cry.
I saw Will in my dreams driving his old Suzuki, he waved at me and drove away without stopping to see why I was waiting for a bus at 2am or why I was crying.
I woke up feeling so lightheaded as I was crying so loud with no tears.